IM SO SORRY Nikocado Avocado/ let’s talk PINK!!
Mar 15, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8MTeP8wcWa4

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good morning and going to adjust my
phone did not come yesterday like I
thought I knew it wasn't going to it
said it was shipped whatever did it was
that all this went down so what are we
on one Friday so Wednesday it said it
shipped that I should be here tomorrow
on Thursday I waited all day for an 8:30
update after you know no ups or anything
delivers Ford to say your phone will be
shipped or that it will be delivered
tomorrow which would be today
so I'm glad that I did cancel my life
because you know I wouldn't have been
able to do it so anyways that is that
with the update of my phone hopefully
hopefully hopefully it will actually be
delivered a little bit early it's in
Portland so that's not very far away but
you consider the fact that they've got
to drive it down to Salem you know
always drama with a phone what were what
was life back before cellphones you know
you always wonder that well at least I
do well there probably wouldn't be much
YouTube there would be some but maybe
not as much and the job would have been
a lot harder um anyways so I wanted to
update you guys on my Maya my my
beautiful cup it is officially
completely 100% done ready to drink I
washed it I got these straws
I'm so bright and fun when you guys
order a cup if you guys want a straw
just let me know and I can put a
matching straw in there like pick up one
of the colors and match it but o-m-g you
guys I am in love with meeska mooska and
I love the fact that it has a matching
strong yeah so yes this is my mom my
baby she'll go with me everywhere now
and I'm this one is a 30 ounce er so I
can definitely I mean I don't have to
use a straw I could just drink it right
off um but it's nice to have a straw and
this one's a 30 ounce so I'm gonna use
this strictly for of my water so I can
calculate how much water I'm drinking a
day and drink my water in style okay so
a few things that I needed to address
first one is okay so I made a video
yesterday talking about Naqada avocado
um
because I didn't I wasn't aware of who
the person was
I had heard his name a few times but I
never took like I said yesterday I never
took the time to really go and research
who this was you know I just had no
reason to at the time but because his
name had been brought up quite a few
more time since then I thought you know
if maybe I just do I maybe I need to go
check him out so he did and like I told
you guys yesterday he's a I think I say
this name wrong mukbang look bomb look
mom is that how you say it I don't know
anyways so he is a mukbang mukbang
channel okay I want to state it right
here
I don't have nothing against those kind
of channels okay people enjoy watching
them sometimes when you're really
struggling as somebody working on their
weight loss
sometimes watching somebody eat food
like what you're kind of craving it's a
funny thing but it can sometimes help
you for me personally I don't like
watching those videos because it's a
trigger for me is Nakano avocado a
trigger for me no like I stated
yesterday I am NOT shooting shame
towards him or his channel because he's
very success in a little bit let me
rephrase that again he's very successful
he's got a huge audition audience of
people that obviously enjoy watching his
channel he does it in a highlight of fun
ok I'm not stating that there's anything
wrong with him
I did not want to bring that as a
negative thing
I was just personally saying I don't
enjoy watching people eat but I don't
enjoy watching my husband eat or my kids
eat for that fact I just don't like
watching people eat in general but that
doesn't mean that he's wrong or what he
does is bad so I seen that he had
commented on my video yesterday and that
he was truly apologizing for having such
a bad experience and Nakano I don't want
you to think that that was what I was
trying to say please don't take that bad
I did not mean it as a shame thing again
I went back again yet last night after I
read your comment and I was like you
know I'm gonna give him another shot
like I really want to check this out and
just really see without you know
anything over my eyes I just want to go
in and watch his videos because he said
that he does a lot of talking at the you
know like at more towards the end of his
videos and he does ok so that part of it
I do enjoy I love what listening to
stories I love listening to things so
you know bypassing the whole watching
him eat his dinner or food or snack or
whatever it is he's eating the other
parts of his channel are there not bad
there's nothing bad with what he does
and I don't want to cast bad vibes
towards him or his channel because I
never want that for myself so first and
foremost please forgive me
please forgive me if I made you feel
like I was making you feel like your
channel is worthless you know and I know
my one little number
isn't gonna isn't gonna make any
difference I mean you have a beautiful
amount of people on your channel and
clearly you are successful so
congratulations on that and that is
thumbs up all over the place for that
like I said some people
mukbangs are not geared for them and
then others it's what they like
everybody has an opinion everybody's
allowed to do it see what they want to
see put time into whatever they want to
watch um you know for me I'm on a
journey of trying to lose weight I
started out at 515 pounds you know and I
am I've lost you know I'm down to four
hundred and thirtysomething you guys
help me here um four hundred thirty
something am i 431 or 432 I don't know
anyways I'm at one of those numbers and
and I right now I'm kind of at a I'm at
a plateau because I think I dropped so
quickly you know a good amount but now
I'm at a plateau and I'm also struggling
a little bit with you know wanting to
veer off a little bit so sometimes
watching channels like that could
actually trigger me a little bit not all
the time but it can and so you know I
don't personally like to watch those
type of channels because I'm working so
hard at getting healthy but that doesn't
mean any shame to your game
nikhat oh you do you boo because you're
doing good so please do not feel like I
am trying to belittle your channel talk
crap on your channel nothing please
don't because I don't do that to anybody
I don't I wouldn't want it done to
myself and I wouldn't do it to somebody
else so apologies
and and just so you know I did go back
on I did watch a few more of your videos
and I truly enjoyed what I seen so
bypassing the whole mukbang part of it
um you know they were interesting so
anyways there is that so anywho you keep
like I said you keep doing you because
you're doing good
so anyways onto another little thing
that I need to address please uh-huh
not that I'm doing this because of any
other reason to cause drama strife like
that but my name is kind of getting
twisted into our tornado and I need to
pull myself out of it and address it
okay we're talking about pink fairy okay
I'm gonna do this to the best of my
ability to where I'm not stepping on
people in my own lane but I need to
address a little bit because I feel like
a few a few tires have gotten a little
bit into my lane and I need to clear the
air so as most of you all know if not
everybody knows pink fairy for a few
days went off-grid okay there's hearsay
well okay I'm not as a hearsay because
some people said that well okay it was
hearsay to me okay I was not on any live
of pink fairies I think I have ever in
my entire time of being a part of pink
fairies journey I think I've watched one
I'm not saying it's because I didn't
like her I'm not saying it's because she
was bad but I just never got I never it
never ran into my timing that I was able
to catch a live at first okay
she's a different time zone so a lot of
times she did her lives when I was
either busy or dealing with because her
lives were later on which was still
pretty early on in my days so I didn't
catch her lives however
there was a live where there is
something said I guess on the live I
don't know and I'm not going to repeat
what they were because it's not
something that I heard directly but I
was told and I have heard that there
were some things that were not so nice
said on the life from pink fairy why
pink fairy went off the grid I don't
honestly know again I have hearsay but I
don't know personally because I didn't
hear it from in in words speaking the
horse's mouth okay
I don't know but me and pink fairy had
affiliations with the fact that she we
were working with Murch
I was making her March for her channel I
did that for about two maybe a month ago
half to two months at the very very most
I didn't get very many orders in and
some things kind of crossed wind a
little bit
so me and pink decided that we would go
ahead and quit the merch for now because
it just wasn't going where we thought it
was gonna go and so I was already in the
process of pulling Pink's Facebook page
down for her merch I had received a
message about a week ago
last Saturday I want to say I might be
off on my dates just a little bit but I
think I want to say it was last Saturday
I received a message from Pink's asking
please can you take my page and put it
under private and at that point I was
like what okay that's kind of weird even
though I already knew that I was putting
I had already put it C when you disable
a page it takes 14 days consecutive days
for it to be a 100% disabled so I was
kind of thrown off guard a little bit
because I didn't hear anything at this
point at this point I didn't know
anything going on but I was like oh
that's kind of weird but alright you
know that's fine but it was already
going so it wasn't anything I had to
really address but I bet messaged her
and asked her is everything okay now I'm
gonna also make it very clear me and
pink really never had
communication other than just with the
merchandise that was it I we never were
on a one-to-one friend a friend basis it
was business oriented pretty much
straight across I didn't know any
personal business of pinks and she
didn't know any of my personal business
nothing wrong with that it was strictly
business oriented so I asked her if
everything was okay and she just said
everything is fine
but you know I am NOT at a position
where I want to talk about it and
respectfully I said okay that was it
that nothing else need to be said well
later on I had went on and somebody I
don't remember what one of my subs on my
page said what happened to pink fairy
her pages got her YouTube channel is
gone I'm thinking what is going on so I
of course went to pink fairies page cuz
I didn't know what was going on and all
of her videos were disabled such a
private I don't know but her her channel
was standing but all of her videos were
gone so I thought something was kind of
strange but you know between her message
to me and the content being gone I knew
something was up but I didn't know what
and I again didn't feel like it was my
personal business because we weren't on
a level of friendship like that that I
would feel the need to ask if everything
was okay with her channel so since then
there has been multiple videos made of
what and the reasons why pink fairies
channel is gone everybody can draw their
own conclusion as to how they feel or
believe what happened again
I don't accuse unless I have 100%
without a shadow of a doubt the proof in
my hands to say this is what was said or
this is what was done or this is what
was taken I will never accuse that has
went into my own personal life anybody
that knows me personally knows I will
never accuse somebody unless I have the
proof I mean before I went to Egypt the
night before I went
Egypt I was at my cousin's house there
was only us and my family there there
was nobody else there and my wedding
ring that I was supposed to get married
with and a thousand dollars came up
missing out of my purse the night before
has to fly out to Egypt and it had to
have been somebody in the home but I
didn't have I had no proof of who it was
so therefore I couldn't accuse anybody
because I didn't see it with my very own
eyes you could draw your conclusions you
can say well this person was in the room
at this time and this person was in the
room at this time I had the money at
this time I put it back in there at this
time this person see me put it in there
at this time but I can't accuse cuz I
don't see it that is how I've always
lived my life and that's how I would do
the same with pink at this situation
right here I wasn't on the life I didn't
hear anything said so I can't accuse
okay since all of this has been drifting
there is another channel and I I'm
totally gonna say the name probably
wrong but I must say here the first part
of it because I know how to say the
first part the second part honor but
it's la log Yara I think it's how you
say it
okay I've watched her lives I've been on
her lives I've watched him um she has
her feelings about it so you know
supposedly her and people were really
close friends at one time again I don't
know I never heard anything talked about
I didn't hear people talk about lucky
ara and her channel I I don't I honestly
don't know any of that but I have been
on her lives and somebody had stated
that law had made a comment about me
being nosy or something like that so you
know I sat on it for a couple of days
and I thought no you know I think I'm
gonna confront it I think I'm gonna
confront it because there is nothing in
my bones that is nosy I if I want to
know I know where to go directly to get
my source of information but again I
didn't feel the need to it's not my
business it has nothing to do with me
it's not gonna affect me in any way
the only affiliation I had was pink
again was her merch that was it other
than that she didn't you know like run
my channel I didn't run her channel and
we were parting ways anyways not in a
bad way but we were parting ways because
I just you know I didn't see the merch
line going anywhere and it takes a lot
to run a page it takes a lot to make
merch I mean it took me almost three
weeks just to make Pink's merch like the
designs so anyways I confronted law last
night on her live in front of everybody
I said you know I have a question I
would like to know if and I asked her
the question if you were on the Live you
would have seen it um and she stated no
she didn't and she even asked the people
that were on the life did I say that and
everybody said no now did she say it I
don't know I wasn't there I obviously
had left alive when supposedly she said
it okay do I believe she would say it I
really don't think so because to me her
and I don't have affiliations why would
she the only affiliations that I have
with her would be with pink it being the
middle middle person like and you know
that's the only thing we have in common
with each other otherwise I didn't know
she existed and I'm sure she didn't know
I existed so we kind of squashed it
right there and then and I just was like
okay you know I mean it's not a big deal
if you did you did but I was just
curious to know if you did why you would
say that um you know I also at that same
point I you know stated in my own words
the same thing I'm saying to all of you
guys now is you know if what pink did
was and we were talking at the time on
laws live okay because on laws live it
is talked that pink has promoted racism
I don't know if that's true I again I
don't know I wasn't there but if we're
talking about it on laws live I'm gonna
direct my comment to law and her channel
on what they're promoting that pink did
so I told
pink I told lies said if in fact pink
did something like that that's really
sad I do not tolerate racism I mean
hello my husband's from Egypt my kids
are biracial and I mixed so you know but
it's either here or there you know
everybody has an opinion everybody's
allowed to have it
if you notice I never ever ever ever
ever speak about politics or well I
don't even I can't hardly keep up with
politics but I mean I don't talk about
if I agree with the things that are
being done in the world or if I agree
with what you know the runner of the
state is doing I I don't talk about any
of it because honestly it's a very
touchy subject a lot of people have
opinion everybody's allowed to state
their opinion but stating your opinion
can sometimes hurt another person and I
will not all right being hurt or having
somebody hurt because of their own
opinion so when I made the comment I did
on laws live I meant every word that I
said I don't promote racism if you
promote it great but I don't and I left
it up that and then law asked if we want
it if I wanted to go into like email and
talk to her and then I have nothing to
hide I really don't but there's really
not a whole lot to talk about because
again me and pink had no affiliation of
friendship close relationship nothing in
that general all we had affiliation with
was our merch that was it
other than that painted her thing I did
my thing and I got a lot of her subs
because they seen my my merch line and
that drew them to my channel and I'm
grateful that I have them and I'm
grateful that if you're still here I am
so grateful to have you guys and I don't
want you guys to think that I am bashing
pink or that I'm bashing law or that I'm
bashing the situation because clearly
like I've stated
I don't know I was not there I do not I
do not place my opinion upon hearsay
from others I have to know and I have to
have the I guess you'd call receipt so
as I've heard that's the slang in
YouTube world lately I have to have the
proof in my hand so that I can make my
own determination of opinion on the on
facts
I will not place my opinion on hearsay
okay am I saying law strong for her
opinion and for her feelings absolutely
not
maybe she was in there she heard it she
knows it that's fine she's allowed to
state her opinion she is allowed to have
her opinion just like everybody else in
the situation is allowed to have their
opinion nobody is wrong but I personally
don't want to be tied into a tornado of
this whole mix because I don't have
affiliations with any of it in my
toothpaste am i this am i that
absolutely not no I'm not I just don't I
don't have an opinion okay I don't have
an opinion because I wasn't there for
the person that keeps going around and
saying well Amy and pink were best
friends and now Amy and law are best
friends Kay no I graduated from my high
school GED program in 2000 when I
graduated in 2000 all of that high
school drama graduated with me I don't
do best friends and this and that and oh
and uh uh no and I have time for it I'm
a mother of three children I'm a wife
I'm a business owner I'm a youtuber and
I don't have time for the little petty
drama of who's best friends with who and
who's gonna be best friends tomorrow No
No so the person that is trying to stir
the pot with the whole best friend think
stop stop we don't need it we don't want
it I don't want it okay law and I do not
have affiliations okay she's a youtuber
I'm a youtuber the only thing that we
have in connection with the common
ground is pink that is just because it
our channels group you know like kind of
combined and I heard her name so
I was like okay I'm gonna go check her
out but outside of the whole pink thing
you know I didn't know law existed and
I'm sure law didn't know I existed okay
but there's nothing wrong with that
there's I have no ill feelings towards
law and I have no ill feelings towards
anybody because again like I said I am a
bystander I don't know any of the
factual events that happened all I know
is I've heard hearsay I've seen hearsay
and I'm not gonna place my opinions
against that that's not fair to pink
that's not fair to LA that's not fair to
me okay so and that's not fair do you
guys um am i sad that this all went down
yeah yeah god it's 2019 like let's get
over this let's stop promoting such
meanness and hatefulness you know I just
was informed about you know in New
Zealand the terrorist attack that
happened and all the people that were
killed
those were my Muslim brothers and
sisters that were killed killed just
randomly killed for no reason just like
American people get killed from
terrorists from other countries as well
okay so let's stop the ugliness let's
start promoting the peace and the love
and the the the acceptance of one
another whether you're straight gay
lesbian bisexual black white yellow
brown purple green peacock hair brown
hair white air let's just stop stop it
why does it take such division to make a
world why can't we all just love each
other and accept each other for where we
are in our lives but why do we all have
to sit and pull fun at each other I love
everybody I love I don't care if you're
fat skinny ugly beautiful a model a
person that just climbed out of a
garbage can I will hug each and every
one of you because everybody deserves to
be loved I don't care if you're gay
don't care if you're straight I don't
care if you are bisexual and like em all
I love everybody and I just wish that
more people would be like that
let's stop promoting hate let's stop
promoting the ugliness let is let's try
and promote the the the positiveness
okay I get it
maybe somebody said something that was
not okay I understand that let's address
it and let's move on let's promote
positiveness let's promote acceptance
let's promote let's love the haters
let's love the haters because their
hearts are hurting you cannot be a hater
and a meaningful person and have so much
love in your heart so they're hurting
and they're looking for love and
acceptance let's give it to them maybe
if we promote it that more maybe there
would be less ugliness in this world but
it's getting to the point where I don't
even want to take my children to the
store because it's not going to be the
day that someone pulls a gun out and
starts killing people that's sad that is
truly sad that this world has gotten to
that point now that we don't even want
to take our kids out that's sad
so anyways enough of all of that I hope
that all made sense and again back to
you know kado
avocado I love you there is no shame
here I will never speak negative about
your channel because that is not okay
you do you you eat those avocados for me
because I can't eat them I'm allergic to
them but no I really truly truly love
all of you guys and you know what
Nakano avocado I love you log Yara I
love you Pinkberry
I love you I love everybody let's just
keep promoting love and acceptance and
we'll move on from there
let's get her booked out let's see what
our readings about today because it
seems like lately it's been hitting the
nail on the button every single time
okay okay so these are a part 1 part 2
but we'll read part 1 today February
12th never stop serving and giving out
of the goodness of your heart you will
reap what you sow
even if others refuse refuse to
acknowledge or appreciate the value of
the seeds you've planted let's try that
again never stop serving and giving out
of the goodness of your heart you will
reap what you sow
even if others refuse to acknowledge or
appreciate the value of the seed you
have planted and we're gonna go on to
the next page because I want to keep
that all together your time and effort
is valuable you are not required to
sacrifice either to prove your
worthiness to someone stop sowing into
infertile grounds your time and effort
is valuable you are not required to
sacrifice either to prove your
worthiness to someone stop sowing into
into infertile grounds
wow you guys Wow that speaks some major
volumes and I hope you guys take that
reading with you today as you know every
day that we do our readings
I just love you guys in my channel I
love the positiveness that we have
created and I want like I've said before
and I will say it so many times over
I want everybody that comes to this
channel to leave this channel knowing
they are loved they are accepted that
there is nothing that you can do in your
life that will make us not want to be a
part of your life
please take care of you guys today and I
will see you again hopefully my phone
will be delivered tonight so I can start
doing my vlogs where I'm driving or
shopping because I have done things and
I haven't been able to show you our eyes
because well our phone to do it I didn't
want to show you guys really quick look
what I picked up from the store look at
this ha ha ha little headbands
of course they're for me I got this one
too it's gold I got this one whoa so fun
I got a white one with gold I got just a
regular pink one I got this one's really
pretty
and then I got just a diamond one it's
kind of like this one but this one's not
diamonds but this one is so I thought
that was really pretty so anti ways I
think that was it so I'm going to close
you guys so I can get this edited and
get this put up because I am going to
take the babies to go feed the duckies
today we're not going to get out of the
car because it is really ugly on the
ground it's like pure mud and my babies
don't they grew out of their boots I
went to go and try them on yesterday and
they were completely too tight so we are
gonna go and do shoe shopping today I
think later but daddy's got to go to
prayer and I've got some things to do so
we're going to go get shoes later on
this evening but I I'm gonna take them
to go feed the ducks anyways so and I
won't be able to record it I don't think
I'm oh you know what I might be able to
if I flip my phone around so anyways
take care of you guys I will check in
with you guys later love y'all and let's
promote the positive and acceptance and
love
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